God's work

SO this past week has been an interesting one for me. As most of you know, marriage is hard. It is not always easy. And mine has been on the crazy cycle lately. It even came to the point of thinking about giving up. Suddenly, I had an intervention! GOD intervened. I spoke with my pastor who helped me in the most amazing way! He helped me realize that I have been baptized but never saved! How can you not be saved you ask? Well I just haven't been. So, I was saved, on that day, in his office. I bowed my head and prayed for God to come into my heart and my life. And he did!! I walked out of that office with a new look on life, feeling 100 lbs lighter. And since that day I have seen the changes in me and also in my husband. We went to church this morning together as a family for the first time. We both left there feeling amazing and renewed. In God's eyes our marriage can be renewed if we walk with Him! It's not all going to change overnight but, it is going to change over time. I can see it changing already. He left today to go to work and before he did he gave me the biggest longest hug he has given me in a long time. Kissed me and told me that he loves me and is so happy that we have accepted God into our life and looks forward to seeing the change! :Tear: aww..... And for the first time in a long time. I MISS HIM! I MISS MY HUSBAND!

So my dear friends. How are you feeling about life???? Has God worked on your heart? If you have any stories of inspiration to share please feel free!!

Ahh peace

This incredible sense of peace has come over me that last few days. I dont know what has changesd. Maybe it is the way I have been praying? Maybe it is what I have been praying for? I am learning to take the small things in life and cherish them. Like the moments that I will never get back with Landon. The new words he learns and hearing them for the first time. He never ceases to amaze me. I think God gave him to me (because he is so much like I am) to show me how even though things can be difficult and he can be stubborn (as can I) there is always another day! I have started following a blog called The Marriage Ministry. The writer is fantastic and very insightful. There is a sense of accomplishment in knowing that everyone has struggles as do every marriage. My marriage has been having some ups and downs lately, more downs than ups. But, there is hope at the end of the tunnel. I have been on a journey to look deep inside myself and be completely and truly honest about my flaws. And trust me there are some flaws!!!

I am not an expert by any means but, I can say this has been the best thing I have done for myself and my marriage so far. Maybe this is where the peace comes from :)

On a side note, we are going to a wedding this weekend where the colors are orange and camo! I will be sure to post pics next week!!!!

Have a great week and God Bless!

My perfect little angel

So, I have decided that my son is a genius!! The last few weeks I have been calling in home daycares that I found on craigslist. I get one lady on the phone and one of my first questions is "what sort of educational things do you do with the kids?" This is the response I got "well we do colors and shapes and numbers, a 2 year old I watch knows THREE words" In her most excited voice!!! Really???? My 19 month old knows 27 words. Yes 27! Is this because I stay home with him? Or because I actually teach him things while we are at home.

So in my quest to find a daycare I still have not found one. And I am still looking. On the other hand I did have an interview last week so, I am hoping this opportunity works out.

I'm sure all mothers are the same and we all think our children are smart but, really I have myself convinced.Not only is he the cutest kid EVER but, he's a genius too!! Thank God for good genes (well mine at least) I kid I kid!!

Enough bragging. On to the seriousness of it. I need help finding a good daycare, in home or out of home. Any suggestions? Even a nanny?

My new venture

So, I have decided to follow my dreams!! For as long as I can remember i have wanted to be a wedding planner. I am the one that all my friends who are getting married call when they need help. So, I decided to turn my "free services for friends" into a lucrative business doing something I love and have passion for. I know its going to take awhile and I know its going to be hard but, I'm ready to take on the challenge. I already have my first wedding. A dear sweet girl, Christa, that has been my family photographer for years is getting married. Christa has generously offered to let me help plan her wedding in exchange for pictures for my website and recommendations.

Travis told me last night that he thinks I am going to be successful because I have a passion for it, I always put 100% into everything and I know how to make a bride on a budget have an amazing wedding!!!! When we got married I did our WHOLE wedding, everything included, for $1500

So, the planning begins. I am making a business plan and getting on it! So, friends and followers if you have any friends getting married that are looking for a planner. I would love a recommendation!

Wish me luck! Maybe one day you will attend a fabulous wedding planned by ME!

Where do I begin?

Sometimes I feel so lost. That is the main reason I started this blog and the 101 list. Number one on my list should be GET A JOB!!! Travis has decided to stop working in the field and only work in the shop. Which means a HUGE paycut. But, it also means learning to live together. In the 4 years we have been married we have never truly lived together for more than a month at a time. This has been the hardest week thus far. It has been constant fighting and re-evaluating if this marriage is still what we both want. We love each other, dont get me wrong. We truly truly love each other but, have really lost each other in the past few years. So, really my question is...where do I begin? How do I know if this is truly what I want anymore? I love him but, feel like we have grown so far apart and wonder if the fighting will ever stop. And were not the best fighters we both say mean hurtful things that can never be taken back :( Trust me I know its horrible and we fight like teenagers but, its just how things are right now....I dont want this marriage to end but, I feel like he does.

So, if you have any suggestions please let me know....